Wednesday, February 13, 2008

InSaNiTy

okay, Im about to reveal a crazy side of me that absolutely no one knows about. I'm not really one to have secrets, but the ones I do have are extremely closely guarded.

So things with the "guy" are great. We're back on the "friends" track although I feel so certain that he likes me. He's so attentive to my needs, he flirts with me and I catch him (although I don't tell him that I know) stretching the truth to avoid mentioning his girlfriend. (this happens when I ask a question and I know the answer is "my girlfriend" but he says "my friends" instead. It could be truthful answer technically, but he's definitely omitting the whole truth and I know it's done consciously.)

okay, anyways though, here's what I do. I feel crazy for doing this but I can't stop. I made up a fake facebook profile so that I could stalk his girlfriend. She's in a different network than I am in, so this was the only way. It's been going on for months. I was supposed to stop in January (new years resolution type thing, but I didn't. I have cut back though).

It gets worse. I'm crazier. I've done all kinds of cross-checking to see who their friends in common are and then analyze based on the existing or missing linked friends how serious their relationship is.

Once I was creeping on the profile of a mutual friend of theirs. It was taking me a while to figure out how they both knew her. She is the girlfriend of one of our class mates, but I didn't understand how the connection was so strong. Then I noticed that this girl and the "guy's" girlfriend are from the same city. old friends. oy.
anyway, I see on the new girl's wall that the girlfriend posted a message about coming to the city (this past Nov.)

Well this infuriated me because I was friends with him that whole time and he never even mentioned she was here. LIAR. but I still like him. 

Confusion all around..

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

What - no updates?