I feel as though I'm living a nightmare. The "guy" is in all of my classes. I can't sit beside him because it gives me anxiety; I sweat!
Today I "answered" a question in class, and was wrong. Not wrong per se, but my response was already covered in the existing answers on the board. I was humiliated..my face gets ridiculously red. Normally I wouldn't care but when he's in the room, it's a disaster.
I don't have a job for the upcoming summer either. I won't get into the details of how I blew my chances for my dream summer job that was effectively in my pocket with the single stroke of a computer key. Let's just say that's a major contributing factor in the birth of this blog in the first place.
I'm also getting paranoid that my identity will be exposed and people I know will recognize me as the author of this blog. Perhaps I should start injecting lies that I treat as fact. Perhaps I already have. Do I actually live in New York? Maybe I'm from New York but I live in a place that's a lot cooler.
3 comments:
I don't understand the anonymousness of the internet.
I've always posted as myself. What you see in print is pretty much what you get in person.
As a former forum moderator I know IPs can be traced by admin. & police when there was a suicide post.
I will be accountable to Elohim. I was put on this earth to glorify Him.
As far as embarrasment goes. Move on...try not to dwell on it...
There are millions of people out there blogging. Don't use given names, don't use places that you know someone could or would connect back to you (I think NYC is safe) and most of all don't tell people you know that you are blogging and chances are really, really good that no one will ever know or ever figure out who you are. Write what you want, say what you feel, and you can always delete the blog, take it private or tell everyone you want to know about the blog and deal with that.
You can choose to ignore the comments that you don't like, or even delete them. Decide what purpose this blog serves for you, and if it is good, keep it, use it and enjoy it.
This "guy" is just a guy. He is human, just like you and if he is someone who would think less of you for a wrong answer, screw him. He is not someone you would want to know better.
FYI...
Thought this article might be of interest :
http://www.insidehighered.com/views/2006/04/17/golub
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