law school anxiety.

So it's interesting.

I abandoned the blog back in February. 

I don't know why; it's not that I didn't enjoy writing. I can't explain why I stopped.

In some ways, many things have changed. In other ways, it's all the same.

Firstly of all, it's over with the "guy". Thank G-d.

When I look back on the posts I wrote, it's infuriating because it was so ridiculous. I can't believe that I allowed myself to continue in that situation for so long. It was so obvious it was going no where.

We're still friends, but barley. we don't really talk.

Maybe I should have mentioned earlier that I'm in law school.

I developed anxiety in law school. I'm coining the phrase "law school anxiety".

 

I don't stress out before the exam, but afterwards, I start panicking.

It's a funny feeling to be conscious of yourself when you have anxiety. You try to fight yourself; you know you're being irrational but there's nothing you can do. I equate it with the "paranoia feeling" when you smoke weed. Except you're sober, so you can't pass it off as being high. That makes you think the anxiety serves a purpose - that you're correct in feeling this way.